I Am The Face

I know I don’t get very personal on this blog.  It should all be about the amazing crafters and the hard work they put into their projects.  Every once in awhile, though, I feel like I should share something with you guys.  Not even all of my family knows some of this, but I feel like it’s time to share.  I know it’s wordy, but bare with me…

Today is a day that has a lot of personal meaning to me and my little family.  It is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day.

I’ve shared a tiny bit about why I started  SYTYC in the about page and in interviews and conversations I’ve had.  But I’ve never shared what lead to that discussion I had with my sister and BIL about blog stalking and starting my own.

At the time Abbi was just over a year old and sleeping all but 6 hours a day (she was a FANTASTIC napper) and I had just found out we were expecting our 2nd baby.  We were so excited and I loved having all that extra time while she slept!  I could read and sew and cook and craft and keep my house clean and get ready for the new little one.

Then my world came crashing down.  I miscarried that baby.  We were heart broken.  All of the sudden, that wonderful free time became crushing to me.  I no longer had the motivation to do anything but dwell.  Dwell on the fact that little one we wanted so much wasn’t coming.  All I could bring myself to do was mindlessly blog stalk when I was alone and pretend everything was ok when people were around.

A month or so later I visited my sister and her family for a week and we started talking about all the blogs that I had discovered.  That conversation and brain storming session about what SYTYC could be like was a turning point for me.  All the sudden I had a plan and the motivation to actually DO something to work my way out of my depression.  I got right to work getting So You Think You’re Crafty up and going.

We hadn’t given up on adding to our family, but with the 3rd miscarriage came a diagnosis of “unexplained recurrent pregnancy loss.”  We realized that maybe God had another plan for blessing us with a sibling for Abbi so we started the adoption process and paperwork.  For the past 3+ years, and through two more miscarriages, we’ve been waiting.

But good news!  At this very moment my husband and I are waiting for the call to head out to Las Vegas, Nevada.  And when we come home it will be with a little sister for Abigail.

God is Good.

 

 

 

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Comments

  1. says

    Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry for your losses. I am confident that God will use your story to help others.

    I just praise the Lord for your good news. Praying for you all for that phone call to come and safe travels ahead! Bless you, dear one!

  2. says

    Congratulations on the addition to your family! I’m so sorry for the heartbreak along the way though. God is good. And He has a plan for us all and His timing sometimes isn’t what we want but He knows what we need and blesses us accordingly! Looking forward to the next season!

  3. says

    Congratulations on your adoption and thank you for being open about your losses. Our first child was stillborn due to a cord accident. I had quit my job to stay home with her, so I know how hard it is to have too much free time. I actually envied my husband because he had a job to go to everyday. We too recently adopted after not being able to get pregnant again. Adoption is a truly amazing and emotional journey! My blog, Kisses Come in Twos, is all about our struggles with infertility and late term pregnancy loss as well as the joys of finally having a baby to hold.

  4. says

    Yes He is good. And His timing is perfect. I am so sorry for your losses. I know that pain as well and although life moves on, you still remember that baby you weren’t able to hold. Congratulations on the little girl you are adopting. God has planned her for you and you for her. I am so happy for you.

    Thanks for sharing your story!

  5. Michelle says

    Oh you brought tears to my eyes. Many prayers for you and your family. I love your SYTYC and I am so glad that this has been able to bring you a form of healing.

  6. Christine Burk says

    That’s fantastic! Good news is sunshine, and one of the reasons I love it is that it fills me up and cleans out the dark corners where I’m hiding my own hurt. I am so happy for you! So stinkin’ happy! This is terrific news. Pictures, please. :)

  7. says

    Oh, Missy. I’m just so thrilled for you and your family. My heart is just full of happiness for you. I’ve “known” you for a long time, and ached for your struggle. What wonderful news. Wishing you lots of joy at this happy time for you.

  8. says

    Thank you for sharing your personal story; I know how hard that is, having experienced it myself.

    Congratulations on the impending adoption of your newest little one! Families come together in all sorts of ways.

  9. Amy K says

    I know all to well your hurt, and I am so very sorry for your losses. Congratulations on your news and much anticipated trip to Las Vegas. Praying for you and the addition of such a wonderful blessing to your family.

  10. says

    Congratulations on the adoption! Hope it all goes well for you and your family.
    I’m amazed by how many people have a story to tell and often a very difficult one. My experience was a little different in that I had three children with no problems at all and then had three miscarriages. Why I suddenly couldn’t carry a pregnancy was a mystery. We considered adoption but I didn’t feel like it was the right choice for us so we decided to be content with the three great kids we got.

  11. R says

    I just want to say thank you for this. It’s such a taboo topic and I don’t understand that. I’ve been there. My last pregnancy ended in a still birth at 5 months. I know the pain; I understand the dwelling and the loneliness. I am so sorry for your losses. Congratulations on your new little girl!! That’s amazing.

  12. Michelle S says

    Thank you for sharing your story. I’m truly surprised the ratio is 1:4..I’m learning of more and more moms that have lost a child(ren). I’m one of them. 1 miscarriage at 12 weeks last year, and our sweet Charlotte Joy this past February was stillborn at 30 weeks. Prayers as you move forward with adoption. :)

  13. kimberly says

    Oh my gosh! You’re adopting a baby right now! That’s crazy exciting. Both my sister in law and sister were unable to conceive and both had a hard time with the adoption process. Both waited for YEARS – for my sister in law it was 6 YEARS before they had a placement. Both of them thought they had a baby, only to have the birth mom change her mind and take the babies back.
    Adoption is hard and full of ups and downs, I don’t know it personally but through my family I’ve experienced it. I am so excited for you! Congratulations!